Suddenly Single.....

Yes i am.....suddenly single. While it's a relief, and i feel like a weight was lifted off my shoulders. The burden i couldnt see when i was living under the cloud of "love" is clear as day now.  The worrying is gone, the anxiety about the future is well its still there but in a different way. Im Happier....MUCH happier. Everything in my life right now couldnt be better. New apt.. HELLO BROOKLYN!! Great friends, and im dating again which is super fun but super hard as well.. Why is it that all we want is what we can't have. The guy thats emotionally unavailable, The bad boy who couldnt seem to care less if you were there or not there?? Im trying so hard to not sink into the old habits and go for the nice boys (or men) who have all their chicks in a row. Great job, great place, great manners! But theres something so appealing about the one who wont call, the one who only says hi when he sees you on the street...even if hes not all that great looking and isnt currently employed....just the fact that he wont pay any mind to me is what will draw me in....HATE THAT! The one who calls the night after meeting you and politely asks you to dinner, and pulls the chair out, holds your coat open, sends you flowers for your birthday after only one date, the one who made you laugh all through dinner and made you smile when he held open the doors, texts you that he can't wait to see you again and let me say is absolutely adorable....why is it that hes the one who i cant seem to get myself to feel that chemistry with....maybe I should tell him to ignore me for a few days. Us single girls complain all the time about not being able to find a nice guy but I think we are the dumbasses who chose to ignore the nice ones and focus all our attention on the not so nice ones....in reality we are what holds us back from happiness.I'm vowing now to stop, no more bad boys, and the nice ones will get my attention for once.....although no one said i can't just have a little fun with the bad ones, bc we all know they are ridiculously fun!....if I know where I stand whats the harm... :) hehe